Kiss of Judas

I open my eyes and I close it. I wander around this world, and I still see and feel you. How is it that its hard for me to forget you.


Were you supposed to be the one. I wonder, do you think about me too? I am lost. Forever?

I hate to think how I hate you so much. I hate to think that my sanity is affected by your smile, or the memory of your smile.

My head says it detests you my heart says otherwise.

We can never be friends, I will not compromise. I will not settle for anything less. I have murdered all of them whom you chose against me in my mind a billion times. You may have brought out the best in me, but lured out the beast in me as well.

I remember your kiss, how it made me feel, how my knees and the bones of my soul quivered. I did not know that even the kiss of Judas could feel so sweet.

I will never forgive you, you are the reason for all my bitterness.