Be unreasonable...
Please...
Nag me, taunt me.
Pick on my vices.
Question my judgment.
Raise your hands and place both thumbs above your ears and lash out your tongue while I try to speak.
Mock me, hate me, be angry at me for no reason.
Shout at me!
Please do.
So that I can show you, the will i would employ to control myself from shouting back.
Ridicule me, ask me where I been, and complain constantly, show me your evil step sister.
Smirk and tell me to do the math.
So that I can gently bow my head and remain silent till you calm down.
I yearn for it.
It would give me the opportunity to show you how much I love you. By not giving in.
By not fighting back.
So that I will be used to tantrums that may easily rival the wrath of a storm.
Do it now, do it often.
For when that day comes, and days succeeding that.
You should know.
Know it now.
You can do no wrong...
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Thursday, March 29, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Thank you
Ganda,
You must not know this but when I think about you the world becomes a better place to live in. This may sound like a figure of speech but it's really quite literal.
All of a sudden my day becomes brighter, my food taste more tastier, the colors become more vivid, even the air I breathe seems more fresher and am in Metro Manila so you can just imagine :).
It's your power over me.
You have the presence that both calms and soothes.
You must not know this but when I think about you the world becomes a better place to live in. This may sound like a figure of speech but it's really quite literal.
All of a sudden my day becomes brighter, my food taste more tastier, the colors become more vivid, even the air I breathe seems more fresher and am in Metro Manila so you can just imagine :).
It's your power over me.
You have the presence that both calms and soothes.
You may be a million miles away from me and I can feel it. I know it by the way my lips just suddenly turns into a smile, by how my mind just zooms at thoughts of you and everything is quiet because I have to be with the most important woman in my life even just in my mind.
I am not talking just about how perfectly beautiful you are. That's just how you are, closer to magic a miracle the sun is not center of the universe for me It's you.
No matter where you are, whatever it is that you might be doing, I am with you. Always. I think about you constantly, even on the times that either you or me may not have the chance to exchange words. I think about you every time and all the time.
That may sound redundant but it's the best way for me to describe how i am with you. Without meaning to, my mind plans, formulates schemes on how to please you.
I am not talking just about how perfectly beautiful you are. That's just how you are, closer to magic a miracle the sun is not center of the universe for me It's you.
No matter where you are, whatever it is that you might be doing, I am with you. Always. I think about you constantly, even on the times that either you or me may not have the chance to exchange words. I think about you every time and all the time.
That may sound redundant but it's the best way for me to describe how i am with you. Without meaning to, my mind plans, formulates schemes on how to please you.
Other people say that men give flowers to women for no reason because they have done something wrong. Well maybe that's true, I am guilty. I was a fool to ever let you go before. That was a mistake I would have regretted for the rest of my life if not for this chance.
So i cherish this chance to set things right, but I am not just talking about giving you flowers, nor am I saying that I will do one act to make you feel better, I will make up for that mistake for the rest of my life.
Prepare to be woed, to be courted, to be nurtured, cared for and pampered, spoiled and bathed with love and affection from that moment until time stops. And it never does.
For what I have in mind chocolates, flowers breakfast in bed are only garnishes to the actual meal.
With the way I feel for you the moon and the stars doesn't seem that far and impossible is a very obscure word.
So i cherish this chance to set things right, but I am not just talking about giving you flowers, nor am I saying that I will do one act to make you feel better, I will make up for that mistake for the rest of my life.
Prepare to be woed, to be courted, to be nurtured, cared for and pampered, spoiled and bathed with love and affection from that moment until time stops. And it never does.
For what I have in mind chocolates, flowers breakfast in bed are only garnishes to the actual meal.
With the way I feel for you the moon and the stars doesn't seem that far and impossible is a very obscure word.
O don't mind those who say that this is cheesy they do not even know the meaning of the word, there is jusy nobody who writes them this way so excuse their ignorance, i feel sad for them, tell you what i dont care what they say for i wrote this note not with a pen or paper, not even with my mind, but with my heart.
I love you today, yesterday tommorow. Forever is not enough for me to show you just how much.
I love you miss you you and you alone.
By
I love you miss you you and you alone.
By
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Like Christmas everyday
I remember I liked Christmas as a child
But I can not remember why
As an adult, responsibilities and just the regular daily grind made me forget the reasons
Or maybe its just like that when you get older, you forget things, and because of that insecurities sets in and I find myself in denial; the more I can not remember the more I want to find out what they were
So here I am staring at my computer, racking my brain desperately trying to figure it out
Was it the toys that I get during the Holidays? You know that feeling you get when your in amazement of something new; the many features, the cuteness, the fun...
Or the abundance of food? At how you get when your fully satisfied with your Moms delicious Roasted Chicken, or your Aunt' succulent ham.
Maybe, its because the family was always complete. The bonding, you feel that your at home, that you belong.
It might have been the Christmas breeze that seemed to magically blow your worries away. The experience is really different for everyone. For me it was that cold howling breeze that smells of sugarcane. Sweet, clean even mysterious
I do not know I really do not know, maybe its a combination of all that I have listed.
Although the more I think about it, the more its apparent to me that Christmas was never about the material things that you get, its really about how the season makes you feel or because of the happiness it brings.
And I smile.
Because I realized that was and am the luckiest guy in the world.
Because I have you.
And how does that translate to what am talking about?
Well think about it.
It is only with you do I get amazed at the littlest or the simplest of reasons.
I maybe walking, standing up, sitting down or whatever it is that I may be doing, a thought of you never fails to make me smile.
It is only with you that holding hands feels that amazing, I wont even describe how it makes me giddy, and alert and alive! Okay let me try, its like I am holding your spirit and you mine.
The time that I met you was the only time that I stopped wanting anything in life, all I every wanted was you.
It is only with you that I feel full, and delirious and I think your really delicious
Its only with you that I feel at home, to whom I belong.
I feel loved, and love the feeling of being in love with the woman of my dreams. Wow that's a mouthful.
Simply put.
Being with you feels like its Christmas everyday..
And although I may not have you for Christmas this year, its okay because I will have you, be with you, for the rest of my life.
I love you Fey, Merry Christmas today, and for the rest of my days...
But I can not remember why
As an adult, responsibilities and just the regular daily grind made me forget the reasons
Or maybe its just like that when you get older, you forget things, and because of that insecurities sets in and I find myself in denial; the more I can not remember the more I want to find out what they were
So here I am staring at my computer, racking my brain desperately trying to figure it out
Was it the toys that I get during the Holidays? You know that feeling you get when your in amazement of something new; the many features, the cuteness, the fun...
Or the abundance of food? At how you get when your fully satisfied with your Moms delicious Roasted Chicken, or your Aunt' succulent ham.
Maybe, its because the family was always complete. The bonding, you feel that your at home, that you belong.
It might have been the Christmas breeze that seemed to magically blow your worries away. The experience is really different for everyone. For me it was that cold howling breeze that smells of sugarcane. Sweet, clean even mysterious
I do not know I really do not know, maybe its a combination of all that I have listed.
Although the more I think about it, the more its apparent to me that Christmas was never about the material things that you get, its really about how the season makes you feel or because of the happiness it brings.
And I smile.
Because I realized that was and am the luckiest guy in the world.
Because I have you.
And how does that translate to what am talking about?
Well think about it.
It is only with you do I get amazed at the littlest or the simplest of reasons.
I maybe walking, standing up, sitting down or whatever it is that I may be doing, a thought of you never fails to make me smile.
It is only with you that holding hands feels that amazing, I wont even describe how it makes me giddy, and alert and alive! Okay let me try, its like I am holding your spirit and you mine.
The time that I met you was the only time that I stopped wanting anything in life, all I every wanted was you.
It is only with you that I feel full, and delirious and I think your really delicious
Its only with you that I feel at home, to whom I belong.
I feel loved, and love the feeling of being in love with the woman of my dreams. Wow that's a mouthful.
Simply put.
Being with you feels like its Christmas everyday..
And although I may not have you for Christmas this year, its okay because I will have you, be with you, for the rest of my life.
I love you Fey, Merry Christmas today, and for the rest of my days...
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
my vow
I tried everything to shake you off of my system when things went south between us but nothing worked.
I laid low for a while, and think about what it was I should do, for I was lost, but later on realized that I could not find my way because I did not have you in my life.
So I loved you from miles and miles away, asking for nothing, I just soaked with the the feeling of joy whenever I admit to my self that it was you I loved.
Then we reconnected, and we had such a good time until the next issue tried to separate us.
So I looked at myself, contemplated and searched for answers within me.
And then it hit me.
I am happy knowing that I made you happy my love...
This no longer up to me, all the powers of logic, can not help me.
It is like its predestined.
So this here is my vow:
That I will love you and only you; that every waking and sleeping hour I would dedicate showing you just how important you are for me; that I will not stop courting you yesterday-today and tomorrow; that I will shower you with gifts may they be material or otherwise; that I will always tell you you are sexy and beautiful and smart because in my eyes you the only woman that matters; that I will be with you whether you are here or there or wherever; that I will always be here for you no matter what the trouble and I will love you till the sun no longer shines for me.
And I will do all of these without asking anything from you because as I said I am only happy when you are happy.
For life is short who knows what tomorrow brings.
If in my lifetime, you come to realize that it is fate who has spoken and it is too not up to you anymore, then I will be a lucky man.
If not, then I will look for you in the next lifetime and the lifetimes after that, and make you feel the same...
I am done playing I am done pretending.
I can not deny what destiny is telling us, I can no longer fight it.
I vow to love you forever and ever and ever....
I laid low for a while, and think about what it was I should do, for I was lost, but later on realized that I could not find my way because I did not have you in my life.
So I loved you from miles and miles away, asking for nothing, I just soaked with the the feeling of joy whenever I admit to my self that it was you I loved.
Then we reconnected, and we had such a good time until the next issue tried to separate us.
So I looked at myself, contemplated and searched for answers within me.
And then it hit me.
I am happy knowing that I made you happy my love...
This no longer up to me, all the powers of logic, can not help me.
It is like its predestined.
So this here is my vow:
That I will love you and only you; that every waking and sleeping hour I would dedicate showing you just how important you are for me; that I will not stop courting you yesterday-today and tomorrow; that I will shower you with gifts may they be material or otherwise; that I will always tell you you are sexy and beautiful and smart because in my eyes you the only woman that matters; that I will be with you whether you are here or there or wherever; that I will always be here for you no matter what the trouble and I will love you till the sun no longer shines for me.
And I will do all of these without asking anything from you because as I said I am only happy when you are happy.
For life is short who knows what tomorrow brings.
If in my lifetime, you come to realize that it is fate who has spoken and it is too not up to you anymore, then I will be a lucky man.
If not, then I will look for you in the next lifetime and the lifetimes after that, and make you feel the same...
I am done playing I am done pretending.
I can not deny what destiny is telling us, I can no longer fight it.
I vow to love you forever and ever and ever....
Sunday, September 18, 2011
missing you
You can't possibly imagine how much I miss you, even if you tried
how can I express it?
how can I say it?
Somehow just saying I miss you is so shallow and does not match the truth of my longing
Would it be right to compare how I feel to the first drop of rain, after being exposed to the sun's rays at close proximity?
To a breathe of fresh air, when am swimming for the surface, from the bottom of the ocean?
I miss your smile, your laugh
I miss your fragrant scent; I miss how your skin would feel; so smooth when I touch it, and the energy it emits when I hold you, its like I am touching your heart and you are touching mine
I miss the way you would look at me when you walk into a room, all of a sudden by my sight everyone else would disappear, and I would try to absorb the details of the vission before me.
You would smile at me, the kind that would captivate the world, and your eyes they speak and they tell me wonderful things
I miss the way you would own every dress and perfume you wear, and how irritated I would get when I see it or smell it from other people
I miss how you would dig into your kettle corn, the way you munch on it, and at how happy you would look, like and adorable child, thinking about it now makes me want to buy one, and you know I do not like it
I miss Venus and Aphrodite, yes its between the two of us, I will not elaborate
I remember when I got my first car, it was on your birthday and was also the first time I drove you to your place; you don't know do you? That you left your imprint and made the passengers seat yours, I still glance upon that side of the car constantly thinking about the time we shared and wish you were there by my side
I remember the first time I kissed you, time stopped and we were transported to our very own dimension where nobody else exists, and nothing else was important than the way your lips moved with mine, you tasted so sweet, delicious and fulfilling
Your lips is my kind of dessert, heavenly-yummy and calorie free
People say that there is nothing that would compare to the pleasure of the first kiss
Well boo hoo, they know nothing, what if they knew, what if I tell them, that kissing you is never different, when I do, its always like the first time
When I saw you, I wanted to be with you, but when I kissed you little did I know that there can only be you...
I became yours, you owned me
And in recollection, a grin forms in my face because it suddenly hits me that I miss you more than breathing and I love you more than life
I love you, you and you alone...
how can I express it?
how can I say it?
Somehow just saying I miss you is so shallow and does not match the truth of my longing
Would it be right to compare how I feel to the first drop of rain, after being exposed to the sun's rays at close proximity?
To a breathe of fresh air, when am swimming for the surface, from the bottom of the ocean?
I miss your smile, your laugh
I miss your fragrant scent; I miss how your skin would feel; so smooth when I touch it, and the energy it emits when I hold you, its like I am touching your heart and you are touching mine
I miss the way you would look at me when you walk into a room, all of a sudden by my sight everyone else would disappear, and I would try to absorb the details of the vission before me.
You would smile at me, the kind that would captivate the world, and your eyes they speak and they tell me wonderful things
I miss the way you would own every dress and perfume you wear, and how irritated I would get when I see it or smell it from other people
I miss how you would dig into your kettle corn, the way you munch on it, and at how happy you would look, like and adorable child, thinking about it now makes me want to buy one, and you know I do not like it
I miss Venus and Aphrodite, yes its between the two of us, I will not elaborate
I remember when I got my first car, it was on your birthday and was also the first time I drove you to your place; you don't know do you? That you left your imprint and made the passengers seat yours, I still glance upon that side of the car constantly thinking about the time we shared and wish you were there by my side
I remember the first time I kissed you, time stopped and we were transported to our very own dimension where nobody else exists, and nothing else was important than the way your lips moved with mine, you tasted so sweet, delicious and fulfilling
Your lips is my kind of dessert, heavenly-yummy and calorie free
People say that there is nothing that would compare to the pleasure of the first kiss
Well boo hoo, they know nothing, what if they knew, what if I tell them, that kissing you is never different, when I do, its always like the first time
When I saw you, I wanted to be with you, but when I kissed you little did I know that there can only be you...
I became yours, you owned me
And in recollection, a grin forms in my face because it suddenly hits me that I miss you more than breathing and I love you more than life
I love you, you and you alone...
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
being with you
Sure I see that Tree.
As well as how my fingers punch the keys of my laptop.
The cars passing me by and some honking their horns at me as I drive.
I seem to process and act on the task I need to do at hand but you're the one who is always one on my mind.
Wherever or whenever the thought of you lingers.
Its like the air that I breathe.
Its like the wind, I feel it, even if I do not see it, I know it is there.
As if am watching a movie, I see my life pass before my eyes, and you're there beside me, smiling, crying, laughing eating your favorite food.
I see you not with my eyes but with my heart.
It speaks about how much it misses you and how it longs to see you.
Sometimes he talks to some of my other body parts and I uncomfortably shift my hips from side to side at how excited they get, it even happens at a sales call when am with a client, it hits me like a truck and I can neither stop nor deny it.
It sings of you about love, its loneliness, at how happy a memory of you makes it.
And my brain nods in agreement, listening to my heart not minding the noise it makes because no matter how senseless and out of tune it gets; because it still speaks the truth.
I do not even mind the distance.
Hmmmm...
I think its like am playing a video game, I am sitting on a comfortable couch enjoying it with you.
As I see it in a borderless screen, I tell my feet to move forward, my hand to stir the cup so that I can drink my coffee.
Sometimes I enjoy the game at times I get bored with it.
But I always smile and feel the joy at seeing you sitting opposite the couch, and I will tell you a secret, often times I let you win, because I would rather see you happy than to feel victorious when I win the game.
That is how I love you, I am only happy when I know that I was funny. Funny for you.
I do not mind it at all, I cope well, and I would endure a million days like this.
For when I am truly with you life suddenly becomes a celebration.
Its a day filled with joy, excitement and extreme happiness!
Nothing else becomes important, but holding you, looking at you.
If am lucky kissing you!
I can not help it, I am writing about it now and I smile from ear to ear.
The rest of the world would envy me, if they knew that I dreamt about a girl, learn that she is real and am now expressing my love for her.
Seeing you, being with you is like a day filled with roller coaster rides, a day with enhanced senses, am like spider man!
"Its a bowl of apples and pineapples, buko, mango, melon", always loved that song.
hmmmm hmmmm hmmm what a delicious thought of a delicious subject.
If you think you make me happy your are wrong you are my happiness!
And to return the favor, I will make it my mission to always show you that life is like gummy jelly candy.
Unlimited Kettle Corn?
A billion exhilarating rides on a horse!
Crossing out each and every, of the 365 items in a particular book!
Buying a squarish leather chair.
Embotidos, Porkchop and Ampalaya!
I will make it my purpose to make you happy, make a dance move even if I look like a fool just to make you smile.
I will find the whitest, prettiest long white dress for you, and the most beautiful solemn church.
Sit beside you in an airplane.
Ride the toktok, a dinghy boat or ship just to see the reflection of the sun in your pearly white teeth.
Make you remember that everyday from now on, is a day that I declare and illustrate in zillions of ways how much I love you, and pledge to do so until the day that oxygen no longer sustains me.
Being with you is like magic plus one.
Being with you is living and dreaming combined.
Being with you is everything I have dreamed of and more.
And that is why I love you, you and only you...
As well as how my fingers punch the keys of my laptop.
The cars passing me by and some honking their horns at me as I drive.
I seem to process and act on the task I need to do at hand but you're the one who is always one on my mind.
Wherever or whenever the thought of you lingers.
Its like the air that I breathe.
Its like the wind, I feel it, even if I do not see it, I know it is there.
As if am watching a movie, I see my life pass before my eyes, and you're there beside me, smiling, crying, laughing eating your favorite food.
I see you not with my eyes but with my heart.
It speaks about how much it misses you and how it longs to see you.
Sometimes he talks to some of my other body parts and I uncomfortably shift my hips from side to side at how excited they get, it even happens at a sales call when am with a client, it hits me like a truck and I can neither stop nor deny it.
It sings of you about love, its loneliness, at how happy a memory of you makes it.
And my brain nods in agreement, listening to my heart not minding the noise it makes because no matter how senseless and out of tune it gets; because it still speaks the truth.
I do not even mind the distance.
Hmmmm...
I think its like am playing a video game, I am sitting on a comfortable couch enjoying it with you.
As I see it in a borderless screen, I tell my feet to move forward, my hand to stir the cup so that I can drink my coffee.
Sometimes I enjoy the game at times I get bored with it.
But I always smile and feel the joy at seeing you sitting opposite the couch, and I will tell you a secret, often times I let you win, because I would rather see you happy than to feel victorious when I win the game.
That is how I love you, I am only happy when I know that I was funny. Funny for you.
I do not mind it at all, I cope well, and I would endure a million days like this.
For when I am truly with you life suddenly becomes a celebration.
Its a day filled with joy, excitement and extreme happiness!
Nothing else becomes important, but holding you, looking at you.
If am lucky kissing you!
I can not help it, I am writing about it now and I smile from ear to ear.
The rest of the world would envy me, if they knew that I dreamt about a girl, learn that she is real and am now expressing my love for her.
Seeing you, being with you is like a day filled with roller coaster rides, a day with enhanced senses, am like spider man!
"Its a bowl of apples and pineapples, buko, mango, melon", always loved that song.
hmmmm hmmmm hmmm what a delicious thought of a delicious subject.
If you think you make me happy your are wrong you are my happiness!
And to return the favor, I will make it my mission to always show you that life is like gummy jelly candy.
Unlimited Kettle Corn?
A billion exhilarating rides on a horse!
Crossing out each and every, of the 365 items in a particular book!
Buying a squarish leather chair.
Embotidos, Porkchop and Ampalaya!
I will make it my purpose to make you happy, make a dance move even if I look like a fool just to make you smile.
I will find the whitest, prettiest long white dress for you, and the most beautiful solemn church.
Sit beside you in an airplane.
Ride the toktok, a dinghy boat or ship just to see the reflection of the sun in your pearly white teeth.
Make you remember that everyday from now on, is a day that I declare and illustrate in zillions of ways how much I love you, and pledge to do so until the day that oxygen no longer sustains me.
Being with you is like magic plus one.
Being with you is living and dreaming combined.
Being with you is everything I have dreamed of and more.
And that is why I love you, you and only you...
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
no tears
What am I doing, I have to stop.
I cant cry anymore.
Its pointless and useless.
What is this for, why does my eye bleed with water.
Am so stupid, this is a lot of nonsense.
What a bull of crap would you please just stop?!!!!
Rain, rain go away come again another day...
I hate the rain! I do not need it!
What am I doing??!!
Really why am I crying?!
I don't want to cry, please let them tears ran dry.
Its so unrealistic..
For even if they be like that in a storm.
EVEN IF! they accumulate in a pool as big as the ocean...
They can never show you, how deep and strong my love is for you.
You have no idea! You would never be able to measure it!
EVEN IF add you up, all the love songs, all the heart aches and all the poems in the world.
They would still fall short!
They can never equal!
My love for you that's Immortal...
So please, please. please please.
I beg of you PLEASE!!!
Just stop.
No more tears please, no more tears, no more no no no more...
I cant cry anymore.
Its pointless and useless.
What is this for, why does my eye bleed with water.
Am so stupid, this is a lot of nonsense.
What a bull of crap would you please just stop?!!!!
Rain, rain go away come again another day...
I hate the rain! I do not need it!
What am I doing??!!
Really why am I crying?!
I don't want to cry, please let them tears ran dry.
Its so unrealistic..
For even if they be like that in a storm.
EVEN IF! they accumulate in a pool as big as the ocean...
They can never show you, how deep and strong my love is for you.
You have no idea! You would never be able to measure it!
EVEN IF add you up, all the love songs, all the heart aches and all the poems in the world.
They would still fall short!
They can never equal!
My love for you that's Immortal...
So please, please. please please.
I beg of you PLEASE!!!
Just stop.
No more tears please, no more tears, no more no no no more...
Saturday, September 3, 2011
30 days
It is amazing how I smile without noticing that I was.
My left hand holding the steering wheel while my right on the shift stick and I do not even see the road.
People notice that I am happy, and my office mates agree with my current mood, even the clients seem to respond to the atmosphere at work very well.
I talk to individuals who inquire, sell credit card subscription or insurance and I do not seem to mind the sales call.
I now live with a singular wonderful thought.
You.
When I wake up and before I sleep, you are all I that I think of.
May it be the life that we will have together, our beautiful daughter or just you smiling, talking, holding your hands, hugging and kissing you, being with you...
Waiting for you as you walk down the isle.
Being with you is like magic, you need not be present to make me feel the way that I do.
A text, a call a picture of you gives all gives me the same happiness.
I wish everybody else shares the same love that we have.
Where each day or night is filled with endless dreams of each other.
Where I can read your mind as much as you can read mine, where I do not need to speak for you to understand what it was that I meant.
I am the luckiest man alive to have you in my life. Has it really been just 30 days? It sure feels longer, for I remember every moment, every detail.
Every whisper that that my heart gives to my soul, about sweet nothings and future plans, constantly beating, living, longing for you...
My left hand holding the steering wheel while my right on the shift stick and I do not even see the road.
People notice that I am happy, and my office mates agree with my current mood, even the clients seem to respond to the atmosphere at work very well.
I talk to individuals who inquire, sell credit card subscription or insurance and I do not seem to mind the sales call.
I now live with a singular wonderful thought.
You.
When I wake up and before I sleep, you are all I that I think of.
May it be the life that we will have together, our beautiful daughter or just you smiling, talking, holding your hands, hugging and kissing you, being with you...
Waiting for you as you walk down the isle.
Being with you is like magic, you need not be present to make me feel the way that I do.
A text, a call a picture of you gives all gives me the same happiness.
I wish everybody else shares the same love that we have.
Where each day or night is filled with endless dreams of each other.
Where I can read your mind as much as you can read mine, where I do not need to speak for you to understand what it was that I meant.
I am the luckiest man alive to have you in my life. Has it really been just 30 days? It sure feels longer, for I remember every moment, every detail.
Every whisper that that my heart gives to my soul, about sweet nothings and future plans, constantly beating, living, longing for you...
Sunday, August 7, 2011
As you brush your teeth
As you brush my teeth I am thinking, what is this feeling in me slowly creeping from my heart which forces a smile in my mouth.
What is that which makes the beat of my heart pound extra fast with the anticipation that I would see you over video in a few short minutes?
Hmmmmmmm... Is it just blood?
Or is there something else?
I know that my heart needs to pump blood to the rest of my body to survive...
But seeing you, being with you, has always been the reason why I want to live.
O you have no idea just how much it is that I love you, or may think that its not possible for me to think bout you constantly, all the time, every hour, every minute-second and millisecond.
I turn on my webcam and see you, look at your smile and my day is brighter, my smile is more wider.
Who would have thought that listening to the sound our your AC, as I wait for you to finish heat up your burger and prepare your morning coffee could give me so much joy?
Have we been doing this for a little over a month now? Every chance we get? Then why is it that I look forward to the next video and the next and the next...
Why is it that every time I see you seems like the first time?
The pupils in my eyes becomes larger and the details I see becomes crisp.
Tictakatatak tak tak tik tik.
You just write an email so pensive, looking distantly eating your burger.
Munching scratching your nose from time to time, and you look so adorable.
Wow, that is really fast typing!
But somehow it still does not match the speed of the beat that my heart makes because am looking at you.
I can not put a finger to it, except to tell you that, I am so in love with you...
Looking at you pouting your lips, exploring my imagination as I look at the strap of your sleeveless shirt, hoping that it would fall off, makes my spirit rise!
I want to taste your burger flavored lips, smell and plant kisses on your delectable neck. Hug you from behind and let you feel the pulse of my body member filled with excitement.
I do not mind looking at you do your chores, I feel ever more in love with you now than I did yesterday, thank you for letting me spy on you just now, look at me, look at me smile, you warm my heart and brighten up my day.
I love you Fey!
Your my deliciously lovely, hot and sexy, smart and intelligent Wifey!
I love you, you and you alone!
Hubby "By"
What is that which makes the beat of my heart pound extra fast with the anticipation that I would see you over video in a few short minutes?
Hmmmmmmm... Is it just blood?
Or is there something else?
I know that my heart needs to pump blood to the rest of my body to survive...
But seeing you, being with you, has always been the reason why I want to live.
O you have no idea just how much it is that I love you, or may think that its not possible for me to think bout you constantly, all the time, every hour, every minute-second and millisecond.
I turn on my webcam and see you, look at your smile and my day is brighter, my smile is more wider.
Who would have thought that listening to the sound our your AC, as I wait for you to finish heat up your burger and prepare your morning coffee could give me so much joy?
Have we been doing this for a little over a month now? Every chance we get? Then why is it that I look forward to the next video and the next and the next...
Why is it that every time I see you seems like the first time?
The pupils in my eyes becomes larger and the details I see becomes crisp.
Tictakatatak tak tak tik tik.
You just write an email so pensive, looking distantly eating your burger.
Munching scratching your nose from time to time, and you look so adorable.
Wow, that is really fast typing!
But somehow it still does not match the speed of the beat that my heart makes because am looking at you.
I can not put a finger to it, except to tell you that, I am so in love with you...
Looking at you pouting your lips, exploring my imagination as I look at the strap of your sleeveless shirt, hoping that it would fall off, makes my spirit rise!
I want to taste your burger flavored lips, smell and plant kisses on your delectable neck. Hug you from behind and let you feel the pulse of my body member filled with excitement.
I do not mind looking at you do your chores, I feel ever more in love with you now than I did yesterday, thank you for letting me spy on you just now, look at me, look at me smile, you warm my heart and brighten up my day.
I love you Fey!
Your my deliciously lovely, hot and sexy, smart and intelligent Wifey!
I love you, you and you alone!
Hubby "By"
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
like a child...
The world is bright; my morning is smiling and so am I.
I do not know how to call it, but it feels good, this feeling that is inside of me, it has no scent, nor has it any color.
It is great to not have any concerns right now all I do is smile and smile and smile.
This must be how it feels to have the natural high.
Yes! Yes! Yes!
What an amazing word, how could that be?
One simple word, three letters, how could it bring so much happiness?
It does...
I have been waiting for this for a long time, a lot has happened but all I can remember was when you said yes last night, what were we talking about?
O I remember, I was careful too in explaining what I meant, but you know what it does not even matter, all I see is the future.
I am excited, imagine what else we can do, what else we will do.
Look at my tenses, am I making sense right now?
I am scattered brain.
I want to do a lot of things all at once.
And I am jubilant with anticipation; for me to show you more, just how much it is that I love you.
Wait.... Did you say yes?
.
.
.
Yes it is confirmed I checked, the conversations that we had last night.
O how wonderful that felt, reading all your messages to me.
O, I just want to be clear, I did not forget, its just that it feels like a dream...
This feeling is surreal.
Its all I ever wanted, I am like a child at the eve of Christmas morning, waiting for Santa Claus, or climbing my first tree, experiencing the first joys, its like laughing for the first time, hearing music for the first time, tasting my first ice cream, its like all of the joys I ever felt rolled into one...
And more!
I have had so many relationships, yet it is only with you that I feel this way, can you blame me for not giving up?
Your my joy, my laughter, that early morning sunshine that touches my face which makes me want to get up to start my day. You are all I have ever wanted. You the love of my life. The reason why I want to live. My Happiness, my Glory, the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with.
I thank you for this feeling, I will be forever grateful, and will do things for you to show how, from today until the rest of my life.
You just wait, you will feel it everyday, every minute every second, both when you wake up and before you go to sleep and even while while you are sleeping.
Thank you, Thank you Thank you my Wifey.
Let me tell you, loving you feels more natural and more important than breathing...
I do not know how to call it, but it feels good, this feeling that is inside of me, it has no scent, nor has it any color.
It is great to not have any concerns right now all I do is smile and smile and smile.
This must be how it feels to have the natural high.
Yes! Yes! Yes!
What an amazing word, how could that be?
One simple word, three letters, how could it bring so much happiness?
It does...
I have been waiting for this for a long time, a lot has happened but all I can remember was when you said yes last night, what were we talking about?
O I remember, I was careful too in explaining what I meant, but you know what it does not even matter, all I see is the future.
I am excited, imagine what else we can do, what else we will do.
Look at my tenses, am I making sense right now?
I am scattered brain.
I want to do a lot of things all at once.
And I am jubilant with anticipation; for me to show you more, just how much it is that I love you.
Wait.... Did you say yes?
.
.
.
Yes it is confirmed I checked, the conversations that we had last night.
O how wonderful that felt, reading all your messages to me.
O, I just want to be clear, I did not forget, its just that it feels like a dream...
This feeling is surreal.
Its all I ever wanted, I am like a child at the eve of Christmas morning, waiting for Santa Claus, or climbing my first tree, experiencing the first joys, its like laughing for the first time, hearing music for the first time, tasting my first ice cream, its like all of the joys I ever felt rolled into one...
And more!
I have had so many relationships, yet it is only with you that I feel this way, can you blame me for not giving up?
Your my joy, my laughter, that early morning sunshine that touches my face which makes me want to get up to start my day. You are all I have ever wanted. You the love of my life. The reason why I want to live. My Happiness, my Glory, the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with.
I thank you for this feeling, I will be forever grateful, and will do things for you to show how, from today until the rest of my life.
You just wait, you will feel it everyday, every minute every second, both when you wake up and before you go to sleep and even while while you are sleeping.
Thank you, Thank you Thank you my Wifey.
Let me tell you, loving you feels more natural and more important than breathing...
Friday, July 8, 2011
While you were sleeping
While you were sleeping thoughts started to form in my head
And then I wondered what if this that we share, will move forward to a higher level
As I pondered, I could not help but be amazed at the quick pace that my heart took suddenly
I knew I was in an automobile, driving for the office but as I see the road, I see all these other thoughts as well
And I felt you there, in my head, in my heart I know, I know and I am proud that I am in love with you the woman I dream about
My thoughts went on and on and it became hopes and wishes
I could feel the heat boil inside of me
It was then that I was taken away from my imagination when I heard a car horn blowing behind me.
I have to tame my thoughts, I would not want to cause an accident.
I looked out I noticed that I was almost at the office and felt disappointed because I did not want my day dream to end
But I told myself, not to worry, cause the world is young and the future is bright, I know I should be patient, so that the feeling will be more, when my dreams become real
So I parked my car and already I can see a client waiting for me, but I took one more look at that day dream that I was hooked and smiled, the kind that reaches my eyes.
Once again your thoughts made me happy, and I can't wait to return the joy that you give in ways you will never dream about
While your were sleeping, I felt my love for you grow and grows by the minute...
"I wondered, what it would be like to sleep at night and wake up in the morning with you by my side. To kiss your lips when your sleepy and kiss you before you open your eyes"
"I wonder what it would be like to hold your hand again as we move freely and openly for the world to see, I know how it felt then, and pray that I feel it again"
And then I wondered what if this that we share, will move forward to a higher level
"I still dream of you as the woman I will wait for, opposite that long isle, as you walk towards me in white with a smile so bright"
As I pondered, I could not help but be amazed at the quick pace that my heart took suddenly
I knew I was in an automobile, driving for the office but as I see the road, I see all these other thoughts as well
And I felt you there, in my head, in my heart I know, I know and I am proud that I am in love with you the woman I dream about
"To Share popcorn with you, while we watch your favorite show, and to eat Cheetos when we watch my cartoons"
My thoughts went on and on and it became hopes and wishes
"To hold you in my arms and kiss you gently, long and hard, to taste you"
I could feel the heat boil inside of me
" To be one with you and as I do so, my breathe becomes shallow and I would hear my heart pounding in my head, smell your feminine fragrance, be oblivious to the world and the night. Be in a place where nobody exists but you and me, where we won't hear any other sound around us except the soft murmur of our souls telling each other observations about the sweetness of the moment. And even though our eyes will be open our visions will be blurred by passion , as we engage in that magnificent duel where we will try and consume each others fires from within"
"Nothing else will be important but the cries and shouts that will wake the moon and startle the stars"
"The world will cease to exist and the only thing that will matter will be the puddle of sweat, that would taste salty and sweet"
It was then that I was taken away from my imagination when I heard a car horn blowing behind me.
I have to tame my thoughts, I would not want to cause an accident.
"How about the pretty dresses you will wear when your belly's a swell, at how much beautiful you will look because of the your inner glow and the voluptuous proportion of your body"
"At how many times a day I will tell you I do not mind the added weight and that you are still my deliciously lovely beautiful hot and Sexy Wifey"
"I can not begin to imagine the amount of pampering you will get, from me and everyone else because nothing else will be as priceless"
"Then I smile wider as I know I will guard you like a puppy, and take care of you like a chicken, as I accompany you to classes to practice your breathing"
"Not the Universe nor any medical team will be able to stop me from holding your hand, and be cautious of showing you that I too, am in pain with the way you squeeze my hand as if it were between a anvil and a hammer"
I looked out I noticed that I was almost at the office and felt disappointed because I did not want my day dream to end
But I told myself, not to worry, cause the world is young and the future is bright, I know I should be patient, so that the feeling will be more, when my dreams become real
So I parked my car and already I can see a client waiting for me, but I took one more look at that day dream that I was hooked and smiled, the kind that reaches my eyes.
Once again your thoughts made me happy, and I can't wait to return the joy that you give in ways you will never dream about
While your were sleeping, I felt my love for you grow and grows by the minute...
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Your power over me
As I sit down facing my laptop, looking at the snapshots that I took of you on our short video conversation.
And I can't believe how happy I am.
Stunned, repeatedly I move the arrows back and forth, viewing your beautiful photos, all of them perfect, all of them adding a hard pound on my chest, I try very hard disregard the tempo of the mouses sound as I shift from picture to picture, which rightly coincides to the beating of my heart.
Then I stop and stare and I can not move, I have to will myself to write to you and describe how I feel.
I close my eyes and feel the warmth that engulfs me, how does this feel?
I can hear my heart beat, even after we spoke even after you said you had to go to your cousins place.
I type and smile, I think and smile, I can no longer remove this smile that has been pasted on my lips ever since our last meeting, and I smile some more remembering the conversations we had just a while ago.
They were about your flight, they were about what you were eating, about how I got caught blowing you a kiss over the camera, they were everyday ordinary conversation which were made special and heartfelt because I was sharing them with you.
Why is it that I yearn to see you smile?
That I delight at the sound of your laughter?
I can now remember the kinds of dips and arches that your lips make when you speak when you are pensive when you kiss, when you sleep.
Why is it that I can not help but stare at you?
That I feel like you own me, and love how it feels?
Its you, only you, you have power over me.
You can ask me and I will say yes.
I would jump for you, roll over like a dog when you say so, swim the river of the Nile, climb mountains and be on foot for miles just to be near you.
Go ahead and take me, bring me to that place that we hold so dearly.
I come to you in complete surrender, I am yours all yours, body soul and spirit.
For this lifetime and the lifetimes that comes after that....
I am yours, I am yours....
And I can't believe how happy I am.
Stunned, repeatedly I move the arrows back and forth, viewing your beautiful photos, all of them perfect, all of them adding a hard pound on my chest, I try very hard disregard the tempo of the mouses sound as I shift from picture to picture, which rightly coincides to the beating of my heart.
Then I stop and stare and I can not move, I have to will myself to write to you and describe how I feel.
I close my eyes and feel the warmth that engulfs me, how does this feel?
I can hear my heart beat, even after we spoke even after you said you had to go to your cousins place.
I type and smile, I think and smile, I can no longer remove this smile that has been pasted on my lips ever since our last meeting, and I smile some more remembering the conversations we had just a while ago.
They were about your flight, they were about what you were eating, about how I got caught blowing you a kiss over the camera, they were everyday ordinary conversation which were made special and heartfelt because I was sharing them with you.
Why is it that I yearn to see you smile?
That I delight at the sound of your laughter?
I can now remember the kinds of dips and arches that your lips make when you speak when you are pensive when you kiss, when you sleep.
Why is it that I can not help but stare at you?
That I feel like you own me, and love how it feels?
Its you, only you, you have power over me.
You can ask me and I will say yes.
I would jump for you, roll over like a dog when you say so, swim the river of the Nile, climb mountains and be on foot for miles just to be near you.
Go ahead and take me, bring me to that place that we hold so dearly.
I come to you in complete surrender, I am yours all yours, body soul and spirit.
For this lifetime and the lifetimes that comes after that....
I am yours, I am yours....
Thursday, June 30, 2011
The perfect date
Who would have thought that time shared in a videoke bar could hold such promise.
At first I tried to sing but I found it hard to focus on the lyrics because my eyes were drawn to you like a magnet.
So we ended up talking about a lot of things.
We spoke of everything and of nothing, both of us laughed constantly.
And then I told you that it was your turn to use the microphone but you told me that you were not drunk enough to even try.
I ordered more alcohol but none of them seemed to have an effect on us, so on it went, the banter and the jokes and the drinks kept of coming.
After two hours, I gave up encouraging you to sing because you never seemed to get intoxicated.
Just in time the intercom rang and we were asked if we wanted to extend but it was late so the waiter brought our bill and we left.
You were worried if I would still be able to drive so we stayed on the car chatting some more, and then it happened...
I felt it, it was there present, that feeling of warmth, its like there was an entity at the center of my heart, speaking.
I was at the drivers seat while you were in the passenger seat, I was careful to give you space, making sure that we had distance between us because I did not want to crowd you.
I kept talking because at that time you were suddenly quiet, I did not know what was happening and I felt the space of the car getting smaller and smaller by the minute.
Then the voice in me said,
"Kiss her", and I replied, "No I can't she might get angry".
I found it odd that I was having two different conversations, with you and with this voice inside of me yet, I understood everything, I was talking to you bout relationships, bout how I felt for you, how I think you were beautiful, how much I cared for what what happened to you, to us, and was happening still.
Until I realized that it was my heart speaking, and the feeling that I felt was of it rejoicing.
It was a weird experience, a good kind of weird.
I asked if you were okay.
You smiled and nod your head in confirmation.
But you were so silent, I was worried I did not know what you were thinking, I was afraid that you would hear my thoughts, loudly speaking asking me to hold you, it wants to feel you in my arms, to smell your fragrant perfume and taste your lips.
It remembers how it felt then, and anticipates how it must feel now.
Like a radio, I tried talk some more, to divert your attention to the scene outside the car, I made you laugh and I was glad.
I had to fold my arms to contain myself from the demands of my heart, "Hold her hands, Touch her face, come on you know you want to feel her lips against yours", "Don't be an idiot and listen to me!"
It was shouting, so I kept looking at your lips, and I said, "If you are troubled, maybe a kiss would help?", but you said, "No", smiling in apology.
I smiled back, made it appear that I was joking, so I kept blabbing, about everything under the sun, I was like a comedian, my projectile of subjects can be compared to an uncontrollable machine gun, it was awkward, because I knew that what I really wanted was to kiss you.
My heart was shouting now, "Your not only an idiot your a coward, so what if she slaps you it will be worth it!", I was in deep turmoil so I looked out, took a deep breathe and said, "Can't you feel it?", in silence another nod, the atmosphere by this time became thick, so thick you can slice it with a knife, both our breathes became shallow then without warning, you kissed me.
And what can I say?
It the greatest surprise of my life.
I am not capable of describing how that felt.
I do not posses enough knowledge to come up with the right words to explain the joy I felt when that happened!
The closest I can come up with is an analogy.
Do you know how loud fire alarms get, when you hear the sirens of those red trucks that come rushing in the streets to get to the burning house?
Or the way you those blasted bells loudly explodes and destroy the serenity in the middle of a fire drill.
Well...
Multiply this by a zillion, to the zillionth power and that is how it felt, only this time instead of the red flag showing the message Danger! Danger! Danger!
It displayed HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!! in bold rainbow colored letters!
Oh I wanted to shout!
To break into song, "O happy days! O happy days! like how the cast in Glee would break into song when they felt like it, I wanted to dance mixed steps of Mamboo, Swing and Tango but I did not because its a physical impossibility and I would surely get injured.
And we did not speak much after that, we just kissed and we kissed and we kissed some more...
Never have I experienced a date like that.
When I went home in the early morning of the next day, I realized that it really isn't the activity that makes a date great.
Its the person whom you are with.
With you, I have to tell you, that date was perfect...
Thinking about it now, I know what really happened.
My heart was not only cajoling me to kiss you, it was speaking to yours as well.
And yours spoke back.
They were happy, being together was like a celebration for them.
A reunion of two hearts meant to be together.
Like children they had no other concern than to hold each other tight and rejoice for that sweet moment given to them and our souls gave them permission.
Isn't that great?
We do not even have to talk. We can just stare at each other or kiss all day and hug and we would still be Euphoric.
I still smile, when I think about it and often wonder, while your away, why is it that when I think of you my heart smiles like it has found the reason to beat?
And the answer is, because you are its reason, its purpose, its drive and and its passion...
You own my heart and I yours and of course we share half a soul each..
I miss you Ganda I hope you like this one :).
Thursday, June 23, 2011
You
You're like food
You're like water
You're like Fuel
You are fire
You're my spirits will that drives me to do better
You are why I look forward to living
You are the why that I exist
Without you I am nothing, the world would just be a big black ball filled with events that transpire like limbo
You're my muse
You are my Goddess
I bow before you a willing slave always yearning to please you
Asking, prodding, thinking of gifts to offer you
Challenging the bounds of my creativity to come up with ways to satisfy your every need
I am only happy knowing that I made you happy
You are color, you are butterfly, you are flower, you are sweet intoxicating delicious fragrance
You're the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that I will always chase after
Sugar, spice and all that's nice
The reason for all my smiles, the content of all my laughter
You are my past, my present and my future
The memory I treasure, the pearl I want to keep, the mountain I will climb
You are who you are
A Wonder
A Surprise
A Vision
A PARADISE
I dare not change you, Never will I alter you
Your a perfect creation and I adore you
You the music I hear in my head
And the dance I have in every step
You are warmth
You are silk
You are pleasure
You are ecstasy
You are my love
You are my life
You're like water
You're like Fuel
You are fire
You're my spirits will that drives me to do better
You are why I look forward to living
You are the why that I exist
Without you I am nothing, the world would just be a big black ball filled with events that transpire like limbo
You're my muse
You are my Goddess
I bow before you a willing slave always yearning to please you
Asking, prodding, thinking of gifts to offer you
Challenging the bounds of my creativity to come up with ways to satisfy your every need
I am only happy knowing that I made you happy
You are color, you are butterfly, you are flower, you are sweet intoxicating delicious fragrance
You're the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that I will always chase after
Sugar, spice and all that's nice
The reason for all my smiles, the content of all my laughter
You are my past, my present and my future
The memory I treasure, the pearl I want to keep, the mountain I will climb
You are who you are
A Wonder
A Surprise
A Vision
A PARADISE
I dare not change you, Never will I alter you
Your a perfect creation and I adore you
You the music I hear in my head
And the dance I have in every step
You are warmth
You are silk
You are pleasure
You are ecstasy
You are my love
You are my life
Friday, June 3, 2011
A different kind of dance...
I saw you and my heart pumped hard
I thought I was having a heart attack
What was it about you that made me react that way?
In an air-conditioned room the temperature seemed to heat up fast, I could feel the warmth growing at my center
My face flushed
I tried to catch your eye but you paid no attention to me
I knew I had to talk to you so I followed you and in accident I am glad I made you smile
You shut the door of the van in my face and hit my arm, you said sorry and in pain I smiled a warriors smile
My hand was sure to bruise but my heart was victorious
Somebody introduced us, and while I was making small talk, I was already daydreaming, plotting our first date
My friends would laugh at me if they knew that it was in a church that we went first, I came from a catholic school but I seldom speak about my convictions; am sure they will be amused
Then came the endless days that I wonder about what you were doing, was I doing the right things to maintain your interest? Was I amusing enough? Were you telling a joke-should I laugh? Was it okay if I send you Candies and biomine on your long trip? Was it too early to ask you out for a movie?
Was I always staring at you? Was I bothering you by calling you every night until the wee hours of the morning and talking bout sweet nothings and nonsensical details about how our days went?
And then you said yes, to a question that has been perennially present in my head
I remembered it vividly, our first kiss was in a Cab, I asked you if I could, but you did not answer, I was nervous so I took a dive. I leaned my head towards you but
you did not move, you were looking into my eyes, slowly gradually I got closer, I could hear my heart pumping in my ears again, it seemed like an eternity to get to your lips
The more you I got closer the longer it seemed
And like a volt of electricity, sparks started flying when you replied with your own lips, its true what you see in cartoons, the plants and the bees seems to materialize before your eyes, dialogue boxes appear out of nowhere, its like the universe has conspired to make that moment happen. I could see you in the darkness I could feel you, I could smell you and my days became even better as we went on as us
Early on, I was told as a child that we have our 5 senses and serves specific functions. We see with our eyes, we smelled with our nose, we tasted with our tongue, we hear with our ears and felt with our skin
With you it was different for I know, that I only need to close my eyes and think about you and I could see, hear, touch, smell and feel you
I swear even my heart can speak, it talks about you and I hear it
I was in love, what a magical state. What a great and wonderful feeling
I like music and with you, the melody was perfect
Have I told you? All of these?
Did you know, that when I held your hands, I could feel not only your hands, but your entire life vibrate with mine?
We were meant for each other, it was only with you that my soul would rejoice at that sight and thought of you
And then ended...
I was nothing then, was in a place of black void, called existence. Downhill I tried my best to cope. I was half a note, half a soul, I never felt more incomplete.
Then I would receive a phone call and my spirits would rise. Then a meeting and I would be jubilant. You say you do not want to see me and tell me later how miserable you are that you didn't.
I try to call but and you do not answer yet you tell me that you wished you had.
I smile even when am sad because you say that the world has spoken that we are not meant to be, but if you look closer, you would see that it is the opposite, the world has decided long ago that you and I were supposed to be together yet we have not listened, take this for instance how is it that after all these years I love you more than I loved you then
It has been so long, so so so long
Like this letter
Still even you can not bear, not writing when I don't write
And not thinking about me even if you tried
But go ahead and take your time, find the answer to your uncertainties
I am just here, I will wait cause I already know
You will be the one I end up with, its as true as tomorrow the sun will surely rise, and when its raining, it does not mean that it is not there
I have found you and I will not let go, from this day on until the sun no longer shines, I will only dance with you and that is the end of it.
Monday, April 18, 2011
You are my...
Why was it that my heart drummed twice as fast when I saw you last and almost stopped beating when you said your goodbye?
Was it only yesterday that you left? No,it wasn't but it surely feels that way.
I can still feel the pain of loosing you, and can not brush off the memory of the beautiful kiss that we shared.
You said that I have to forget you, insisted that you are not the same woman I knew; I tried but why do our paths cross
everytime we thought we have already let go?
You are far from me, but I feel your nearness.
Not physically of course but a supernatural proximity that only my heart can explain.
I think about you everyday even if I try not too, and learn even without asking, the things that are happening in your
life.
It's like we live parrallel worlds.
We have done a lot to be away from each other. Yet our experiences seem to bring our lives closer.
Why do we fight it?
This must be what they meant about fate.
We have no choice about the matter.
Do not lie to me, I know that you were happy with me than with anyone else.
Do not deny it, my heart saw it in your eyes.
Its an absolute fact.
I have loved you the first time I saw your shadow, and have not stoped doing so.
My guess is, I will love you even after my heart stops beating.
Don't you feel it? This energy that draws us closer, its bigger than both of us.
Don't you understand what the world is telling you?
It is no longer up to us.
You and I both are each others destiny.
We can only delay the inivitable, but in the end, you and I, will still become one.
Was it only yesterday that you left? No,it wasn't but it surely feels that way.
I can still feel the pain of loosing you, and can not brush off the memory of the beautiful kiss that we shared.
You said that I have to forget you, insisted that you are not the same woman I knew; I tried but why do our paths cross
everytime we thought we have already let go?
You are far from me, but I feel your nearness.
Not physically of course but a supernatural proximity that only my heart can explain.
I think about you everyday even if I try not too, and learn even without asking, the things that are happening in your
life.
It's like we live parrallel worlds.
We have done a lot to be away from each other. Yet our experiences seem to bring our lives closer.
Why do we fight it?
This must be what they meant about fate.
We have no choice about the matter.
Do not lie to me, I know that you were happy with me than with anyone else.
Do not deny it, my heart saw it in your eyes.
Its an absolute fact.
I have loved you the first time I saw your shadow, and have not stoped doing so.
My guess is, I will love you even after my heart stops beating.
Don't you feel it? This energy that draws us closer, its bigger than both of us.
Don't you understand what the world is telling you?
It is no longer up to us.
You and I both are each others destiny.
We can only delay the inivitable, but in the end, you and I, will still become one.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
my love is dangerous
Are you sure you are prepared to receive the answer to the question that you are asking?
Are you crazy enough or strong enough to feel the power of that which you want to measure?
How much do I love you?
You have no idea about the impossibility of what you are asking for.
How can the amount or volume of something so pure, that which that has a life of its own, be determined?
An entity separate from life, a source of energy so infinite that it transcends death itself.
Can you count the rain drops in a storm as it falls to the ground?
Or the stars as they blink up above the skies?
The magnitude of water in the ocean?
If you can, then I am telling you now, I love you more.
Look into my eyes and stare at my soul. Do you see the core of my being?
It speaks only of you.
About the bottled up love that stays constant.
Endless and always yearning.
I have to write about it, an outlet for my never ending desire to be with you.
A hot magma ready to explode at the sight of you.
It is a good thing that I do not have super powers. Else if I shout my love for you to the heavens it would tear apart Olympus into half.
How much do I love you?
More than you could ever imagine. More than peanut butter and Jelly. More than I love me.
The letters of the alphabets is not enough to describe the way that I feel about you.
But I can show you.
Come and be with me. The place where you truly belong.
Feel my warmth.
Hold my hands and I will take you to a place where you will forget even your name.
And truly understand that nothing else really matters.
But you and me...
Are you crazy enough or strong enough to feel the power of that which you want to measure?
How much do I love you?
You have no idea about the impossibility of what you are asking for.
How can the amount or volume of something so pure, that which that has a life of its own, be determined?
An entity separate from life, a source of energy so infinite that it transcends death itself.
Can you count the rain drops in a storm as it falls to the ground?
Or the stars as they blink up above the skies?
The magnitude of water in the ocean?
If you can, then I am telling you now, I love you more.
Look into my eyes and stare at my soul. Do you see the core of my being?
It speaks only of you.
About the bottled up love that stays constant.
Endless and always yearning.
I have to write about it, an outlet for my never ending desire to be with you.
A hot magma ready to explode at the sight of you.
It is a good thing that I do not have super powers. Else if I shout my love for you to the heavens it would tear apart Olympus into half.
How much do I love you?
More than you could ever imagine. More than peanut butter and Jelly. More than I love me.
The letters of the alphabets is not enough to describe the way that I feel about you.
But I can show you.
Come and be with me. The place where you truly belong.
Feel my warmth.
Hold my hands and I will take you to a place where you will forget even your name.
And truly understand that nothing else really matters.
But you and me...
Friday, October 22, 2010
Love on rewind
And the world faded, I could feel my broken life being mended, I don’t know, I don’t know what to say?
It’s an incomparable feeling, it’s pure love passing like - electricity flowing, when I held your hands I did more than just touch your hands I touched your heart.
It was dark or dim, I could hardly see your face.
I was glad, I was happy, I swear I heard the slow beat of the drums, but no twas the center of my being setting up the tune, for the song that was playing and continuously repeating inside my head.
With a shout so loud I could barely hear the sound but I know, cause I felt, that it was your name.
What is the chance of an arrow in shooting the hearts of two people, inside a place, in a cove of an island with no people passing, O I see the horizon brewing gloomy clouds a sign of the storm that is sure to come.
If I could I would, I wish I can record the time we have together so I can rewind and play it all the time, the movie that is only in my mind.
Your confused, you said you don’t know what to do.
But it’s okay, I will wait for the time when your heart will skip and beat in the same rhythm as mine, that is more than just triple time, o yes, believe me I will rewind and play it all the time.
Yes I am sure, it’s okay, my love is Colossus, you don’t even have to worry about it’s power.
No don’t you dare to shake your head and pout your Lucius lips, cause I know, let me tell you, what I have is more than solar power.
If your wondering I will tell you, it was not a dream, the kiss was for real.
It was, I remembered what others only dream of, we are lucky we have lived it, so please don’t you argue.
Don’t you think too much about it, there is no logic to explain how it felt. I will try but I know, I won’t summon enough power to describe such a kiss, that is indeed like no other.
But I know, don’t you worry I understand how you feel.
It is easy to doubt if its pure fantasy, such a kiss, that we only hope for to get, in that world that we go to, after we say our prayers for the night.
It was wonderful, it was bliss I know it was dreamy.
It was refreshing, that it felt like, fresh air when your drowning.
When I arched my lonely head I thought I’d be disappointed when you bowed your head, I thought that you wouldn’t.
What joy when you looked directly in my eyes and was drawn to a force stronger than gravity, then you gathered enough courage to meet me half way.
It’s the closest that I would get to happiness in a bottle, I wanted to shout, I wanted to jump, to run, to act with extreme jubilation!
It was like fire; it was like ice when your lips finally touched mine.
I know that I did not only kissed your lips I kissed your soul and you, you branded mine.
After your lips, there will be no other.
If I could I would, I wish I can record the time we have together so I can rewind and play it all the time, the movie that is only in my mind.
It’s an incomparable feeling, it’s pure love passing like - electricity flowing, when I held your hands I did more than just touch your hands I touched your heart.
It was dark or dim, I could hardly see your face.
I was glad, I was happy, I swear I heard the slow beat of the drums, but no twas the center of my being setting up the tune, for the song that was playing and continuously repeating inside my head.
With a shout so loud I could barely hear the sound but I know, cause I felt, that it was your name.
What is the chance of an arrow in shooting the hearts of two people, inside a place, in a cove of an island with no people passing, O I see the horizon brewing gloomy clouds a sign of the storm that is sure to come.
If I could I would, I wish I can record the time we have together so I can rewind and play it all the time, the movie that is only in my mind.
Your confused, you said you don’t know what to do.
But it’s okay, I will wait for the time when your heart will skip and beat in the same rhythm as mine, that is more than just triple time, o yes, believe me I will rewind and play it all the time.
Yes I am sure, it’s okay, my love is Colossus, you don’t even have to worry about it’s power.
No don’t you dare to shake your head and pout your Lucius lips, cause I know, let me tell you, what I have is more than solar power.
If your wondering I will tell you, it was not a dream, the kiss was for real.
It was, I remembered what others only dream of, we are lucky we have lived it, so please don’t you argue.
Don’t you think too much about it, there is no logic to explain how it felt. I will try but I know, I won’t summon enough power to describe such a kiss, that is indeed like no other.
But I know, don’t you worry I understand how you feel.
It is easy to doubt if its pure fantasy, such a kiss, that we only hope for to get, in that world that we go to, after we say our prayers for the night.
It was wonderful, it was bliss I know it was dreamy.
It was refreshing, that it felt like, fresh air when your drowning.
When I arched my lonely head I thought I’d be disappointed when you bowed your head, I thought that you wouldn’t.
What joy when you looked directly in my eyes and was drawn to a force stronger than gravity, then you gathered enough courage to meet me half way.
It’s the closest that I would get to happiness in a bottle, I wanted to shout, I wanted to jump, to run, to act with extreme jubilation!
It was like fire; it was like ice when your lips finally touched mine.
I know that I did not only kissed your lips I kissed your soul and you, you branded mine.
After your lips, there will be no other.
If I could I would, I wish I can record the time we have together so I can rewind and play it all the time, the movie that is only in my mind.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
I think am in love...
There is something about you that I can not put a finger on.
You were made different and you were made just for me.
I know it from the bottom of my heart, I react to you differently than anybody or anything that I have ever encountered.
I long for you, yearn for you.
You smell good, my mouth waters when I see you.
I want you, I have to have you.
Ohhh what feeling is this that you do to me??!!
Am I in love? I think I'm in love!
I have to hold you, put you in my arms and rip you open.
Then I will put you on the tip of my lips and savour your blissfull taste...
CHEETOS CRUNCHY CHEDDAR JALAPENO, even your name - your label is a delictable experience for me as it escapes my mouth.
You are mine all mine, I will grab you from the grocery isle and bring you home.
Be alone with you.
Dim the lights, click the controls of the Component and open the televission.
Then I will spend quality time with you.
You have no idea what you do to me, your crisp, crunchy, hot and spicy taste makes me close my eyes when I pop you inside my mouth and makes me think happy thoughts.
I promise to consume you, all of you, I will not leave any morsel for the mouse to feed on.
Lick you from my fingers and even from the insides of the aluminum bag that contains you.
This time I will be selfish. I will only share you to the woman of my dreams.
My sould mate.
What is the probability of me finding that person? A million to one?
My only regret is, my greatest disappointment with my self is that I can finish you only after 3 days after I opened you up.
What a Woos!
But you know what?
I do think of you. From the moment I leave for work in the morning; I sometimes even imagine you alone, waiting for me inside the cold conditions of a refrigerator.
Wait for me, the day is almost over and we will again spend time together.
I can not wait my one and only CHEETOS CRUNCHY CHEDDAR JALAPENO....
You were made different and you were made just for me.
I know it from the bottom of my heart, I react to you differently than anybody or anything that I have ever encountered.
I long for you, yearn for you.
You smell good, my mouth waters when I see you.
I want you, I have to have you.
Ohhh what feeling is this that you do to me??!!
Am I in love? I think I'm in love!
I have to hold you, put you in my arms and rip you open.
Then I will put you on the tip of my lips and savour your blissfull taste...
CHEETOS CRUNCHY CHEDDAR JALAPENO, even your name - your label is a delictable experience for me as it escapes my mouth.
You are mine all mine, I will grab you from the grocery isle and bring you home.
Be alone with you.
Dim the lights, click the controls of the Component and open the televission.
Then I will spend quality time with you.
You have no idea what you do to me, your crisp, crunchy, hot and spicy taste makes me close my eyes when I pop you inside my mouth and makes me think happy thoughts.
I promise to consume you, all of you, I will not leave any morsel for the mouse to feed on.
Lick you from my fingers and even from the insides of the aluminum bag that contains you.
This time I will be selfish. I will only share you to the woman of my dreams.
My sould mate.
What is the probability of me finding that person? A million to one?
My only regret is, my greatest disappointment with my self is that I can finish you only after 3 days after I opened you up.
What a Woos!
But you know what?
I do think of you. From the moment I leave for work in the morning; I sometimes even imagine you alone, waiting for me inside the cold conditions of a refrigerator.
Wait for me, the day is almost over and we will again spend time together.
I can not wait my one and only CHEETOS CRUNCHY CHEDDAR JALAPENO....
Friday, September 3, 2010
Prophecy of love
Hi how are you doing? Are you alright?
Yes I am talking to you, there is only the two of us here, so there is no point in looking behind your back and find out who am talking to.
That is right, I am talking to you.
So you think that you are at the lowest point of your life.
Do not be ashamed, I understand how you feel, you see, I am a kindred spirit we are on the same boat, I too am a recent resident in the “Land of the heartbroken”.
Everything will be okay you know, it just seem like your world has ended, but one day you will wake up without that gripping pain in your heart.
It is really painful isn’t it?
It’s like there is a hole inside your heart, a hollow spot that keeps on getting bigger and bigger.
Then your brain freezes loosing focus, because it insists that you just think about that which you want to forget.
That pain that does not allow you to move, eat, work and think.
Do not fight it; allow yourself to morn your loss. Retreat to the privacy of your room and cry.
So why did he or she leave you?
Why were you replaced? Why is career more important than you?
What did you do wrong?
How could he or she be unhappy, when you dedicated your life and made them the Center of your Universe?
You gave him or her everything and this is how they repay you?
Why did he or she do this to you?
You may beat yourself up in asking yourself the same questions but the truth is you will never find the answer.
Even if they answered when you asked, you will not accept that answer because what you really want is to kiss and make up and pretend that everything is “k” okay.
Why do they have to insult your intelligence by saying, “It’s not you, it’s me”?
No matter how much you disliked hearing that, it’s the most truthful statement that you will ever get from this failed relationship.
It really has nothing to do with you and everything to do with this person wanting to move on.
You are no longer significant, nothing you will say or do will change this persons mind.
This is also why you are better off without this person in your life.
Do not argue with this person, do not threaten, do not insist that they take you back. Even if they finally agreed to what you want, nothing good will come out of these efforts.
Will you be able to forget why you got back together? Would you not constantly think that you are only together again because you forced them to take you back?
So what do you do?
Pray.
Pray for acceptance.
Ask him to make you accept that this has happened.
You do not need to understand why, you just need to learn how to accept it.
Ask him to take care of your “X”.
Ouch! Was that painful for you?
Did referring to your X as an X hurt?
That is correct he or she is already your X.
Like a mantra, you should constantly remind yourself that you and Mr. and Ms. Blank are no longer together.
Repeat after me, “I (your name) am no in a relationship with (Mr. or Ms. BlanK).
Now repeat what you have just said.
Repeat it again, and again, and again…
Every time you think about the break up, remind yourself that is over and you will feel more calm.
Write down your basic tasks for the day and revert to it. Command yourself to do them.
Buy groceries
Go to Work; Call ___; Email ___
Iron your Clothes
Wash the dishes
Take a look at your car ewwww is that an automobile? Or mud in wheels? Clean it.
Look at your refrigerator. What is that brownish black thing at the back of your expired milk?
Take it out.
In other words keep yourself busy.
Remember, before you and X got together, you were living your life alone and you were alright; you will be okay.
Now try to smile. Just smile.
How did that feel? Do it again.
Feels good, doesn't it?
Smiling once in a while also helps.
This is temporary. As I said, you will wake up one day, without this enormous weight that you carry in your heart.
Learn from your mistakes.
The reason why you broke up is because both of you were not ready for that relationship. No matter what you think, you were part of the problem.
You may have quarrelled a lot, or it may have been the little things that escaped your attention.
Your money problems getting in the way of becoming happy.
Whatever it was you were not ready to make the necessary compromise, trust blindly, and communicate well.
Make the effort to get back to your old self. Apologize to your friends for not giving them enough attention, make new friends and most importantly spend quality time with your family.
Besides you have to be okay, it’s your responsibility.
You owe it not only to yourself but to the person who you are destined to grow old with.
It’s a good thing that you and X broke up, simply put it was not meant to be.
There is somebody else who is being molded for you, just you are being molded for her or him.
This person will be the one to bring you the happiness that you deserve.
It is this person who will speak to you by just looking at you.
Say volumes with just a smile.
This person who will hold you and comfort you and look at you like you are the most wonderful or beautiful person in the entire world.
When you will look at her or him your senses will be enhanced; because of the love that you share the colors would seem brighter, you would feel your love at the ends of your fingertips, the food would tastes tastier. You will feel a combination of love, happiness and ultimate satisfaction.
One day, you will look back at this day and smile.
When you get to this point of your life, thank your X, pray that he or she too has found the love and happiness that you have.
Now try and get some sleep, I promise you everything will feel much better in the morning.
Yes I am talking to you, there is only the two of us here, so there is no point in looking behind your back and find out who am talking to.
That is right, I am talking to you.
So you think that you are at the lowest point of your life.
Do not be ashamed, I understand how you feel, you see, I am a kindred spirit we are on the same boat, I too am a recent resident in the “Land of the heartbroken”.
Everything will be okay you know, it just seem like your world has ended, but one day you will wake up without that gripping pain in your heart.
It is really painful isn’t it?
It’s like there is a hole inside your heart, a hollow spot that keeps on getting bigger and bigger.
Then your brain freezes loosing focus, because it insists that you just think about that which you want to forget.
That pain that does not allow you to move, eat, work and think.
Do not fight it; allow yourself to morn your loss. Retreat to the privacy of your room and cry.
So why did he or she leave you?
Why were you replaced? Why is career more important than you?
What did you do wrong?
How could he or she be unhappy, when you dedicated your life and made them the Center of your Universe?
You gave him or her everything and this is how they repay you?
Why did he or she do this to you?
You may beat yourself up in asking yourself the same questions but the truth is you will never find the answer.
Even if they answered when you asked, you will not accept that answer because what you really want is to kiss and make up and pretend that everything is “k” okay.
Why do they have to insult your intelligence by saying, “It’s not you, it’s me”?
No matter how much you disliked hearing that, it’s the most truthful statement that you will ever get from this failed relationship.
It really has nothing to do with you and everything to do with this person wanting to move on.
You are no longer significant, nothing you will say or do will change this persons mind.
This is also why you are better off without this person in your life.
Do not argue with this person, do not threaten, do not insist that they take you back. Even if they finally agreed to what you want, nothing good will come out of these efforts.
Will you be able to forget why you got back together? Would you not constantly think that you are only together again because you forced them to take you back?
So what do you do?
Pray.
Pray for acceptance.
Ask him to make you accept that this has happened.
You do not need to understand why, you just need to learn how to accept it.
Ask him to take care of your “X”.
Ouch! Was that painful for you?
Did referring to your X as an X hurt?
That is correct he or she is already your X.
Like a mantra, you should constantly remind yourself that you and Mr. and Ms. Blank are no longer together.
Repeat after me, “I (your name) am no in a relationship with (Mr. or Ms. BlanK).
Now repeat what you have just said.
Repeat it again, and again, and again…
Every time you think about the break up, remind yourself that is over and you will feel more calm.
Write down your basic tasks for the day and revert to it. Command yourself to do them.
Buy groceries
Go to Work; Call ___; Email ___
Iron your Clothes
Wash the dishes
Take a look at your car ewwww is that an automobile? Or mud in wheels? Clean it.
Look at your refrigerator. What is that brownish black thing at the back of your expired milk?
Take it out.
In other words keep yourself busy.
Remember, before you and X got together, you were living your life alone and you were alright; you will be okay.
Now try to smile. Just smile.
How did that feel? Do it again.
Feels good, doesn't it?
Smiling once in a while also helps.
This is temporary. As I said, you will wake up one day, without this enormous weight that you carry in your heart.
Learn from your mistakes.
The reason why you broke up is because both of you were not ready for that relationship. No matter what you think, you were part of the problem.
You may have quarrelled a lot, or it may have been the little things that escaped your attention.
Your money problems getting in the way of becoming happy.
Whatever it was you were not ready to make the necessary compromise, trust blindly, and communicate well.
Make the effort to get back to your old self. Apologize to your friends for not giving them enough attention, make new friends and most importantly spend quality time with your family.
Besides you have to be okay, it’s your responsibility.
You owe it not only to yourself but to the person who you are destined to grow old with.
It’s a good thing that you and X broke up, simply put it was not meant to be.
There is somebody else who is being molded for you, just you are being molded for her or him.
This person will be the one to bring you the happiness that you deserve.
It is this person who will speak to you by just looking at you.
Say volumes with just a smile.
This person who will hold you and comfort you and look at you like you are the most wonderful or beautiful person in the entire world.
When you will look at her or him your senses will be enhanced; because of the love that you share the colors would seem brighter, you would feel your love at the ends of your fingertips, the food would tastes tastier. You will feel a combination of love, happiness and ultimate satisfaction.
One day, you will look back at this day and smile.
When you get to this point of your life, thank your X, pray that he or she too has found the love and happiness that you have.
Now try and get some sleep, I promise you everything will feel much better in the morning.
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