Sex and the City

There are some movies that I would not be caught dead watching.

But I once saw Campus Girls, a local, flick because of a girl in college who wanted to see it. The movie was a mess, the funny part is, my aunt who was also watching the movie, saw me in the movie house, the worst part is, the week after I attended a reunion, and I got teased by my cousins, they never stopped asking me how did I found Campus girls. The question, at the that time was always followed with laughter.


A man's life, it seems, revolves around women.

We want to get rich, be thin, have hair, play a guitar for the attention of women.

Much for I would say, for the women we love.

So, here I am, just finished watching Sex and the City the movie, at 130am, just because it reminded me of someone.

The conclusion, I hated it, but finished watching it all the same.

Why?

Not because the story line or the acting is bad, in fact it was decent, its just that they ended it with happily ever after.

I hated, it because, even if I wanted it too, this never happened to me.

And I never had a choice in the matter, I was judged and everything was decided without the benefit of asking me.

O well, that is life I guess.

Its a fairy tale story. I hated it because, well, why couldn't it happen to me?

Ms. Anonymous

A good friend of mine, another girl who also broke my heart, was commenting on my blogpost, we were laughing about it over ym, and discussed what made a girl sexy.

In our discussion, I told her that she is still sexy despite the fact that she is happily married now. This is something that I wrote for her. My friend and comare, you know who you are.


"You need not compare yourself with other women, nor should you care about the fact that you are with a son and getting older.

You will always be sexy. Even if you shrug it of and laugh at my comment, you can not deny that fact.

Its not your pretty face, not your slender figure. Maybe its your smile? Maybe its the way you walk, or talk, hmmmmm maybe its because you speak well, smell good and look good, or maybe its because you are who you are, and that in itself is sexy.

If you don't believe me, just notice the way, the people would have a second look whenever you pass bye, or how people treats you cordially with a big smile in their face whenever you talk to them (which includes the crazy person in the street way back in college).

Somehow you have an Aura that draws people to you, maybe because you are not just superficially beautiful, you are different, you are one of a kind, you have a beauty that is pure and would withstand the harshness of time."

Dear friend now, your the one who owes me lunch hehehe.

God speaks through a Movie, A radio Show

I was almost certain that it was you I would end up with.

Then something had to happen...

I was almost sure that we would get back together. All the tunes in my favorite radio show just kept on telling me things about you. Then you decided to finally say goodbye.

I have been like this for two years now. Since the day you left. Always thinking about you, almost forcing myself to accept that it is over between us.

But my arguments with myself are weak. I still think and want to end up with you.

What was it about you?

Was it as real for you as it was for me. Was everything that I experience and felt something that I only imagined?

A good friend told me that, I should really accept and maybe realize that the chapter in my life with you has already ended. She is right of course it has ended. As much as I want it to be you, that will never happen.

I always say that i envy you for being able to move on. I still do. Although, maybe times I said that to spite you. As a sarcastic remark. But the thing is, it is me who is to blame for my situation because I refused to move on.

I was not being inconsistent. I sincerely meant it when I said I wanted you to be happy, although i wanted you to be happy while being with me because i wanted to be happy too.

I may never move on. I may never be truly happy. But i have to try.

It is hard to love the way that i have loved you. They say that there is a thin line between love and hate. Maybe that is true too. Recently, I do not know which is it that I feel for you.

I do not want to hate you this way forever. Doing so would mean I would have to always remember what had happened between us, and that I will never be happy again as well.

I have prayed, and prayed that my mind be free of you. And maybe that is why I saw that movie. Which made me realize that all is not lost, and even in relationships such as ours, shit can still happen.

I hated you lesser than I hated you yesterday.

Haayy...

Lord please help me, I no longer know what to do.

I want to be whole again.

I want to move on.

It is really over isn't it?