Between Here and There.

It was the perfect morning. We were talking nonsense in the car, laughing at your joke as you pretended to speak Korean but it was absolute gibberish. When we got there I helped you with your bag and held your hand as we climbed the stairs.  “We’re here!” I said with a smile and was going to give you a hug, but you saw your classmates and one of them shouted, “James is here!” because of that everyone cheered, “James is here! James is here!” I saw how happy you were when you entered the classroom, I hurriedly shouted, “Have fun, I love you!” but you did not hear me, the door closed and I was left alone, badly needing a hug from you. The time will come when you will no longer need me I know. But not yet please, for now I need for you to need me. Ask me to feed you, and hold you when your afraid of the dark or carry you when your tired. There are times when you want to do things on your own and it stings a little when I ask if you needed my help, and you say no. If o...

the last leaf that fell on the ground signified a different kind of cold. one that sent shivers not only to my body but made even my heart cold. in my mind i see the splendor of what you would have been. a beauty so simple and pure; a radiance of love so strong it demands love in return. i have imagined you for a very long time, you would have looked exactly like your mom, with a smile that would melt even hearts made out of steel. of how your mom would have made a fuss of you, always buying you too much stuffs. girl stuffs that she would make you wear and me enjoying seeing her enjoy doing that for you. you would have made us complete, my baby girl, our baby girl. i may have missed you today but the last time will surely not be the last time. goodbye for now dear Autumn.  for now i will be content to see you in my dreams. for as long as i am alive know that you will be forever in my heart, my days are filled with thoughts of you, of the things we would have done to...

Dear Gabriel,   It might be too early to write you this now.  After all it would take a few years before you learn how to read but I think you need to know...  The time will come when you and your mom will argue, it might be about something big or entirely petty.  Whichever it is, it does not matter. I know it will happen.  A lot. After all, you are my son. In those times you will try to be eloquent, rational and maybe a little dramatic.  You will speak with conviction. You will be logical.  I hate to tell you this now but, you will never win. Don't feel bad, she means well.  She only has your best interest at heart. She will correct you a lot. Be at your heel about the smallest of things. Ask you to tidy up your room. Take up all your space with the knick knacks she will hoard. Be on your case about school, your dirty socks, pester you with the identity of your crush. She will get on your nerves at least twice a day. But... Never tal...

Fey,  I probably did this vow over a thousand times on paper and more than a million times in my head.  That it has gotten to a point where I no longer know what to say. O, ow...  So preparing for it might have been a mistake?  I am the luckiest man in the world, do you know that?  I know of no man who has met the woman of his dreams more so married Her but I AM and I'M PROUD.  We may have went through a lot of challenges, i t may have felt like dying when we broke up, but none of those things matter now.  Here we are finally!  Nothing or nobody could separate us from each other cause what's meant to be is meant to be .  Thank you for this amazing feeling that you bring to my life.  You are so beautiful that I could barely hold back my tears.  Holding you feels like I am holding a dream .  I will never loose you again, never!  With God as our witness I promise to be your best friend, h...

I don't know how you do it But I look into your eyes and it always bring my smile Seems you could tell me the things you want and well, I would yap like a puppy and do all your bidding When no word is even uttered Such a skill i can not fathom Is it charm? Is it a spell? But I know I need no potion  To feel how i feel  With so much love overflowing I could dance and make it rain      Tell me what is this connection  Its an explosion from within      I could feel our hearts beating through through my finger tips when I grab and hold your hand      Its like our souls are rejoicing when skin touches skin      All the little things you do brings me joy and gives me hope    I sit and watch TV and a thought of you would pop in my head      Then the warmth would start spreading from stomach to my heart  I would wake up in the morning to a confused and...

I still remember it.  I was a college freshman, when you lost the election then your health started to fail...   To and fro Manila you went to be treated for Cancer.  At times the news were good, the treatment seemed to work; you even visited us at the boarding house where you drove all by yourself to get there, and then I learned the meaning of the word remission.  Many times, I was just staring into space not knowing what to think but I was hopeful you would get better.  One night, I saw Rosemarie, and Rosette and Roseanne straining to listen to the ear piece of the phone. You were calling from the hospital, so I picked up the extension and listened, your voice was weak but you said you were okay, you were getting better.  But you LIED Dad.  One night my roommate, who's name I can not even remember (was it Jojo)treated me to a night out because he got his commission from a car he sold. I did not know why I did not enjoy the b...