If, only this was the last time
This is the last time that I will ever think about you... The last time that I will wonder what else I may have done to keep you in my life. Is this my fate? To dissect each memory of you; that are like sands that flows in an hourglass that loops to infinity. These involuntary thoughts that intrudes in both my sleeping and waking hours. There is no stopping it, a thought of you would hit me and my heart begins to overpower my brain. In a trance the world before me disappears, and I escape to a place filled flashes of the times that I have spent with you. I remember even the most smallest of detail, nothing evades my minds sadistic scrutiny. A gush of emotions sweeps me away, and I take everything in, the happiness, the sadness and the pain of my longing. I am powerless. You are my preferred poison I do not care about the perils that comes after, only the induced Euphoria that I embrace with my arms wide open, that is here and now. It is here that I beat myself into thinking of what ma...