Between Here and There.

As you brush my teeth I am thinking, what is this feeling in me slowly creeping from my heart which forces a smile in my mouth. What is that which makes the beat of my heart pound extra fast with the anticipation that I would see you over video in a few short minutes? Hmmmmmmm... Is it just blood? Or is there something else? I know that my heart needs to pump blood to the rest of my body to survive... But seeing you, being with you, has always been the reason why I want to live. O you have no idea just how much it is that I love you, or may think that its not possible for me to think bout you constantly, all the time, every hour, every minute-second and millisecond. I turn on my webcam and see you, look at your smile and my day is brighter, my smile is more wider. Who would have thought that listening to the sound our your AC, as I wait for you to finish heat up your burger and prepare your morning coffee could give me so much joy? Have we been doing this for a little over a month now...

The world is bright; my morning is smiling and so am I. I do not know how to call it, but it feels good, this feeling that is inside of me, it has no scent, nor has it any color. It is great to not have any concerns right now all I do is smile and smile and smile. This must be how it feels to have the natural high. Yes! Yes! Yes! What an amazing word, how could that be? One simple word, three letters, how could it bring so much happiness? It does... I have been waiting for this for a long time, a lot has happened but all I can remember was when you said yes last night, what were we talking about? O I remember, I was careful too in explaining what I meant, but you know what it does not even matter, all I see is the future. I am excited, imagine what else we can do, what else we will do. Look at my tenses, am I making sense right now? I am scattered brain. I want to do a lot of things all at once. And I am jubilant with anticipation; for me to show you more, just how much it is tha...

While you were sleeping thoughts started to form in my head "I wondered, what it would be like to sleep at night and wake up in the morning with you by my side. To kiss your lips when your sleepy and kiss you before you open your eyes" "I wonder what it would be like to hold your hand again as we move freely and openly for the world to see, I know how it felt then, and pray that I feel it again" And then I wondered what if this that we share, will move forward to a higher level "I still dream of you as the woman I will wait for, opposite that long isle, as you walk towards me in white with a smile so bright" As I pondered, I could not help but be amazed at the quick pace that my heart took suddenly I knew I was in an automobile, driving for the office but as I see the road, I see all these other thoughts as well And I felt you there, in my head, in my heart I know, I know and I am proud that I am in love with you the woman I dream about "To Share po...

As I sit down facing my laptop, looking at the snapshots that I took of you on our short video conversation. And I can't believe how happy I am. Stunned, repeatedly I move the arrows back and forth, viewing your beautiful photos, all of them perfect, all of them adding a hard pound on my chest, I try very hard disregard the tempo of the mouses sound as I shift from picture to picture, which rightly coincides to the beating of my heart. Then I stop and stare and I can not move, I have to will myself to write to you and describe how I feel. I close my eyes and feel the warmth that engulfs me, how does this feel? I can hear my heart beat, even after we spoke even after you said you had to go to your cousins place. I type and smile, I think and smile, I can no longer remove this smile that has been pasted on my lips ever since our last meeting, and I smile some more remembering the conversations we had just a while ago. They were about your flight, they were about what you were eating,...

Who would have thought that time shared in a videoke bar could hold such promise. At first I tried to sing but I found it hard to focus on the lyrics because my eyes were drawn to you like a magnet. So we ended up talking about a lot of things. We spoke of everything and of nothing, both of us laughed constantly. And then I told you that it was your turn to use the microphone but you told me that you were not drunk enough to even try. I ordered more alcohol but none of them seemed to have an effect on us, so on it went, the banter and the jokes and the drinks kept of coming. After two hours, I gave up encouraging you to sing because you never seemed to get intoxicated. Just in time the intercom rang and we were asked if we wanted to extend but it was late so the waiter brought our bill and we left. You were worried if I would still be able to drive so we stayed on the car chatting some more, and then it happened... I felt it , it was there present, that feeling of warmth, its l...

You're like food You're like water You're like Fuel You are fire You're my spirits will that drives me to do better You are why I look forward to living You are the why that I exist Without you I am nothing, the world would just be a big black ball filled with events that transpire like limbo You're my muse You are my Goddess I bow before you a willing slave always yearning to please you Asking, prodding, thinking of gifts to offer you Challenging the bounds of my creativity to come up with ways to satisfy your every need I am only happy knowing that I made you happy You are color, you are butterfly, you are flower, you are sweet intoxicating delicious fragrance You're the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that I will always chase after Sugar, spice and all that's nice The reason for all my smiles, the content of all my laughter You are my past, my present and my future The memory I treasure, the pearl I want to keep, the mountain I will climb You are wh...

I saw you and my heart pumped hard I thought I was having a heart attack What was it about you that made me react that way? In an air-conditioned room the temperature seemed to heat up fast, I could feel the warmth growing at my center My face flushed I tried to catch your eye but you paid no attention to me I knew I had to talk to you so I followed you and in accident I am glad I made you smile You shut the door of the van in my face and hit my arm, you said sorry and in pain I smiled a warriors smile My hand was sure to bruise but my heart was victorious Somebody introduced us, and while I was making small talk, I was already daydreaming, plotting our first date My friends would laugh at me if they knew that it was in a church that we went first, I came from a catholic school but I seldom speak about my convictions; am sure they will be amused Then came the endless days that I wonder about what you were doing, was I doing the right things to maintain your interest? Was I amusing enou...